May 15, 2005


This evening's one of those low ones. Nothing bad happened---today was a good day, decided I absolutely had to get out of the house for a little while, just went to the store, did a little "shopping" and watched the old man chip some balls at the driving range. I think the low point started with watching Extreme Makeover Home Edition. Nothing wrong with the show---I like it quite a bit---but I think I just cried too much, and now my energy's gone down and I feel blue. Plus I walk around the house and see what a mess it's in---it could be worse, but it's bad enough as it is. I just want to have the energy to and be able to bend over a pick stuff up, ya know? Can't wait for the kid to get here, so I can start cleaning my house again and get on with things, like taking care of my family. I feel like I'm in a holding pattern, just waiting for things to get going, and I've got to wait to have this kid for that all to happen. 3 more weeks...:-|

May 14, 2005

Shocking night...

Nothing bad happened, but woo hoo we had a small thunder storm tonight. It's all gone but the rain---I didn't stand or sit out and watch a lot of it like I like to, but I got to hear a lot of it. My favorite thunder is the kind that, even if it's a ways away, will rumble for a while, to the point where you can feel it under your feet, and it makes everything around you shake and rumble a bit itself.

I have to say, the one thunderstorm I liked the best was the one we saw when we were on our way to my father in law's house from the airport. I was super tired because it had been a long exhausting day of flights (2) and finding our way around, waiting waiting waiting to get out to Colorado. But it was just amazing watching the lightning off over the mountains, the mesmorizing lightning strikes, the rain...we were going 80 I think down Rt 25 (my brother in law, who was driving his new van to come and pick us up, is a speed demon!!!), but I felt completely safe. I was talking with my sister in law, and watching the lightning. I can't wait to live out in Colorado in part because of the 360 view you can get of the sky, and you can see so much more of the sky than you can here. Here you have to look over a lot of trees---there's trees out there too, even an abundance in some places, but because the ground is so much flatter, where there are rambling hills here, you can see so much more of the sky. My favorite weather is definitely rainy thunderstorming nights. :-) If the sky is dark enough with the clouds, even rainy thunderstorming days :-) I've been waiting for a night like tonight. The air smells refreshed now, now that it's been washed by the rain :-)

May 12, 2005

Update and blabber...ha ha

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Baby boy's not breech, just crosswise and oddly positioned. His head's down near my right hip, his back is up against the top of my belly, as is the placenta. Not nearly urgent enough or worrisome enough to require a C-section. I wasn't scared of it...even with where I'm going to be having this kid and it's history both in this family and with other people we know of...not nearly as scared of it as I am of natural childbirth. I just don't want to have to go through what I went through the first time around again. I shouldn't have to...I've been told my body is more forgiving this time around, more able to handle giving birth naturally because of it's prior experience.

Now I'm just concerned about the fact that there's a lot of things lined up for that timeframe. My father in law is supposed to be out here at the time, so that should help some, but I'd hate for my husband to be out on the "CH Open" when I'm going into labor. Through his friends, my husband got into golfing, in part to join into the CH Open last summer and fill out the foursome that had already started. I don't know how well he does out there, what his handicap is or anything---but as long as he likes it and doesn't leave any of his golfing equipment out in my way, I'm happy!! I'd like to join him sometime---both just to watch, and to golf some myself. I tried a few swings when I was younger and an older cousin was into it, but nothing since then. Maybe one day he and I or even he, the kids and I can all get into it together. My daughter just loves doing anything with daddy, so it wouldn't be out of the question! :-)

Mom's doing okay. I talked to her today, and she sounded pretty good. I don't know how long I talked to her---I could probably call up the calling card and subtract about 3 to 5 minutes from how many minutes were used total---but it wasn't a quick "hi, love ya, bye" phone call, and that's all that really mattered. I walked around doing a couple things, then I think played a round of Tri-Peaks on Pogo, then my daughter came home just as my mom begged off the phone, so I think it was maybe 10 minutes or so. I measure how she's doing not just by how she sounds, like my dad does, but also by how long I talk to her. :-) I wish she was home now, but I think she will probably make it home in time for my sister's wedding.

I have a dress I hope to be able to fit into by December, for her wedding. I do plan on starting to lose weight as soon as I can after I have this kid. We'll see when I have him. Can't wait for him to come for a multitude of reasons :-)

May 10, 2005

The end of a chapter

Today was my daughter's last day of Brownie scouts. She's a Junior Scout now :-). I've just got to call the lady who is in charge of the group that her old troop leader found for her. Her troop leader is moving on herself, which is in part the reason why my daughter is. She's studying to be a music teacher, and will be student teaching next semester, so she will no longer have the time for the girls that she feels they deserve. Honorable, I think. Those girls mean the world to her, I know that she wouldn't fold up on it if she didn't really think it was better this way.

For the next kid, I'm looking forward to Boy Scouts :-D

I realized as I got out of the shower just now, I'm at that point where I wonder if I'm going to be pregnant forever. It's just under a month until my due date, just under 3 weeks until my 29th birthday. Not possible, I know, to be pregnant forever, but I guess it's just that each day sometimes seems to take forever. There's something to do every day, but...I can't even remember almost what it's like not to be preggo...I miss being able to touch my toes, because to be able to clean this house like I'd like to, I need to be able to touch them!!! And if I have a C-section, it will be even longer. A C-section is possible---someone might be breech, we will find out tomorrow with a quick sonogram at my doctor's appointment.

I can't wait to have this kid, because I want to clean my house so bad. You don't realize how much energy it takes just to do a little bit of cleaning until you have almost no energy at all!!!

Oh yes, and I plan on starting to put up pictures of my projects. One thing I have been doing is making baby stuff. Hmm...wonder why, ha I will post the one for my neighbor as soon as I get the last 6 or so things sewn on, and whatever else I have---the most of which are in my washer right now!!! :-|

May 05, 2005

Still around

I'm still around and doing stuff. Mostly right now sleeping and sleeping and sitting around and crocheting. No writing for about 2 weeks now. There's been a lot of activity on my crochet group---the decided to give me a baby shower, on my birthday! :-)

My dad said that today my mom stood up twice. Woo hoo, way to go. I hope she keeps progressing well! We all want her here for my sister's wedding! :-)

Here are some things I found: