And another day goes by...

You know, it's kinda difficult coming up with blog entry titles all the time. :-S LOL

I was a bit tired there a couple minutes ago, but not anymore :-| Oh, well, I'm still going to bed soon!

I got good news in my email today---my best bro's on Myspace now. What a nice surprise!!! :-D

I'm working on a felted hook case. It's my first felted project. We'll see how it turns out. I don't have much faith at the moment, but oh well. We'll see.

I'm also working on afghans for 2 people at the place my mom's at :-) I collected up the yarn for them out of my "stock" today.

I'm going to turn the second attempt at the tablecloth I liked so much into a yoyo tablecloth. We'll see if it works out.

My goal for this week is to get the other 1.4 pounds to a 50 pound weight loss.

I've had fun on the listing site this week as well.

Tomorrow's T's root canal. That's going to be somewhat *fun*. :-|

Later tonight....

I will be asleep. But hopefully not as late as last night! My little guy, thank goodness, was his usual self. No need to worry about his little bump on his head. It still hurts, poor thing, but he's his normal self. Like I said yesterday, I've had to thank goodness for him being so because it could be worse. But it's not! So that's a good thing :-D Also, after talking to someone at dialysis yesterday, mom asked me to ask the doctor's office about his lead levels, which I know where checked with his last bit of blood work. That was a bit of good news as well...he was a 4, and the range is a 0-9. So he's right in the middle, no real worries. Well, my mom and I are both concerned because this IS an old house---but it's not over the range, and he's pretty much a normal little 2 year old boy. Sure, he might not be talking quite as well as some people might want him to, but I'm not worried, each kid grows at his own pace! :-)

Funny thing happened to my mom and dad today. Nothing bad---but they had to spend the day with the mother of the trailer park terror. Good thing---we haven't had to deal with him much since I started complaining about him on here, LOL! My dad said that once she said who her son was, it negated any and all thing she had said up until that point :-S Well, she is full of bull :-( She sees the wrong in other people's parenting, and doesn't see the wrong in hers. And she wonders why....My kids are good kids, but I'm not too proud to acknowledge that they might have their faults too! :-\

Well, I have a few more things to do, and then I'm going to bed. I've got to take my shower, read a bit, crochet a bit and then I'm turning in :-)

Long day...

I've spent most of my day cleaning today. It was broken at about 3, however, by a quick trip to the emergency room. My little guy fell and hit his head on the wall. I'm hoping that he did not hit the brick fireplace which was within the 2 foot area where I know he had to have hit his head. He's been his usual self (so much so there were a few times when I had to repeat to myself "be thankful, be thankful, be thankful" because I know that it's possible the visit to the er could have been different!!!).

This weekend was actually a pretty good one. The local Festival was this weekend. My family and I were only able to make it on Saturday (though I would have loved to have gone to the parade on Sunday---now that I think about it, it would have been a great networking opp!! But we went to the other reason why this weekend was so good!), but I gave my card to 7 people during the short time we were there, BEFORE it rained, LOL. I got to see people I like to stop and see...there are 2 ladies, a lady I met at the gym before I went in the Army and a lady who I have bought jewelry from since before that! I also gave a biz card to my sister's maid of honor's mother---and instead of simply talking about the biz, in the few breaths I had I talked about her granddaughter, who is her other daughter's daughter. I could have talked about her oldest as well (the baby's mother and the girl I graduated with, where as my sister graduated and is best friends with her younger daughter), but we didn't have the time as they were on their way across the street and we were just arriving!

The get-together was fun. We had ladies from all over the state, not just local! One traveled 3 hours to see us---that felt good. She's a NICE lady! :-D We got together and made and afghan for one of the members who got married this month---she was so busy that she didn't even notice the one or two times someone slipped---because she deleted so many emails!!! LOL!!! I assembled :-) I'm hoping to keep that going, and I already have an idea for who the next recipient will be!!!!

My head is getting to the point where it hurts, but I have a few more other things I'd like to do.

Another thing that I've been pondering, pretty much since I sat down here. I find myself drawn to recommitting myself to the Lord. Two or five years ago you might not have seen me say that....but the pull is strong now. I found a great site when I first started thinking/working on this. And it's based on my favorite Bible chapter (yes, a whole chapter!), Proverbs 31
It's helped me with at least one thing that's been weighing on my heart. One I won't mention because it's a bit personal. I'll write that in my journal. The other is money. Now, I have a struggle each week when I see how much money we have coming in, and how much more needs to go out. It's part of why I started the candle biz. We've looked at the income potential for the fundraiser we might be getting from the lady whose house we were at this weekend, for the get-together. It's great. Now, when I look at it, what I consider first is all the problems it would take care of for us....bills I'd love to get paid so creditors quite calling, keeping up with the bills we have every month (for once in long time there's a bill I'm not sure I'm going to be able to pay all of this month. It went sky high this last reeval :-( It did not make me happy. How is it that in the summer things are tighter than they should be?? I don't get it!), investing in things for our future. I don't often think of the "fun" things we could do....you can check out my list on a cool new list site I found too! This is what I think of first, not "fun" things all the time (there is one "fun" thing I can think of on it---but consider this, it's still not for fun fun, it's for my walk with God!). Taking care of my family!!! That's ALL I think about!!! NOTHING else!!! So, what I'm worried about though is, being that money is something seen as the Devil's playground (right along with idle hands, which I DON'T have!), will we get corrupted? I hope not...I hope I'll always be the kind of person who thinks of her family and others first. And I can't say it enough, I LOVE the company and the product!!!!! :-)

Thursday's update

Dishes - today's are caught up
Clothes - towels got folded
Have breakfast - did it...lunch and dinner too...all added to WW online Point Tracker
Sort magazines - all the crocheted/knitting ones are done, looked at one other
Read Html book
Make squares/go through bag
Wash bathroom
Go to SA - hoping for tomorrow
Wash T's clothes - done, last load of uniforms are in the dryer, I'll do the tees and socks & undies next week! Not a big enough load for me!
Pay electric and phone bills - done, and upgraded the phone service so I have long distance for the candle biz

I'm pretty caught up, though not all of my list is taken care of. Some are, if you would remember, from the week long list. 2 more days without DD :-|

Thursday's PODA

Never did add that note later in that last post. I just wanted to say---there had been nothing in the washer or dryer, but I ended up putting something in it, which needed rewashed because I let it sit. Not as long as usual, but I added to it, so it needed a bit more.

Dishes - last night's got washed
Clothes - next on list
Have breakfast
Sort magazines - working on it
Read Html book
Make squares/go through bag
Wash bathroom
Go to SA
Wash T's clothes
Pay electric and phone bills

Seems good for now :-)

Wednesday's/This week's PODA

Dishes - washed and last night's put away*(see later note)
Clothes - the washer and dryer were EMPTY. I put a load in...I've also got to add T's to the list!
Swipe toilet - done
Organize kitchen - done (the person who does it now doesn't know how to keep it organized :-S)
Sort magazines - working on it
Read Html book
Make squares/go through bag
Wash bathroom
Bring stuff upstairs - done (and brought stuff down---to sell/get rid of/sort - already sorted!)
Go to SA
Wash T's clothes

Wednesday's/This week's PODA

Taken from one of my flying lists (yes, I'm on 2, I've been more active on the one than the other but I'm getting more active on the other now!):

I didn't set out with a PODA (and right now I'm feeling a little scattered without it, so I think I'll be making it up here shortly!), but I have gotten SEVERAL things done so far:

Mopped the kitchen floor (BOY did it need it!!)
Vacced the carpet
Folded towels (just have to put them away!)
Swept the front porch (just in front of our door, I'm certainly NOT touching any of the stuff they have collected in front of my daughter's bedroom window, on "their" side of the porch!)
Sorted the box of stuff left on my desk (this was a BIG job even though it was a SMALL box. There were a lot of things, some I didn't know before I sat down what I was going to do with them. I had been adding since the last sort of stuff last week, but I managed to find SOME KIND of home for everything! :-D)

I think that's all of it. I'm taking a break now, and then I've got to go around and see what else there is to do around here! :-) Here's what I KNOW needs to be done:

Dishes (including putting last night's away because the person whose job it is, is in Canada right now, LOL!)
Clothes? (I'm trying to remember if there is anything in the washer or dryer)
Swipe toilet

Wow, I can't believe that, despite letting this place go a bit last month, I've caught up enough that I've got nothing more in the ideas department.

More now...I've got several days when I'm the only female around. I find it interesting---it's easy to do stuff when it's just me and the little guy up than when she's here because (a) he wants to be with her and (b) when he is and she's "watching" him I have to pay attention and spread my attention a lot further.

There was nothing in the washer!!!

Anyhow, this list is going to be for the next few days. I've got several things I want to do, including going through a bunch of magazines, some before tomorrow evening (the ones with knitting patterns in them).

Organize kitchen
Sort magazines
Read Html book
Make squares/go through bag
Wash bathroom
Bring stuff upstairs
Go to SA

I think that might be it for now but if not, I'll post again or edit this...:-)

What I've been doing over a week...

Let's see....

Today was about the same as last week, only we didn't go to the National Night Out because that's once a year. I also have left the candles in the truck all week long, so I didn't need to pick both the candles and T up when we went to Weight Watchers. And this week instead of Pizza Salad fixin's, we grabbed ink and barbeque fixin's at WalMart instead of Quality. Otherwise, this week I:

Kept most of my dishes washed
Kept the floor picked up
Washed and FOLDED clothes in the same 24 hour period
Cleared off my desk
Sorted through my pile/box of crochet and knit patterns in order to collect knit ones up for someone and decide once and for all which crochet ones I will be giving to others at a local crochet get together
Started reading Rich Dad, Poor Dad
Got hooked on The Offical Corey Haim Website message board
Lost 1.6 pounds (the 1 I gained last week plus another .6 more!)
Decided I'm switching back to Points

Not bad. I plan on keeping up with my site a lot better and continuing to fix it up and upgrade the html to something that looks cool!!! :-D

Now let's see if I can RSS feed the blog to my website!!! :-)

Just a quick, as I'm going to take a shower and go to bed after this.

Today I:

Picked up mom and dad's mail
Got gas
Visited my mom
Came home to pick up T and candles
Put a load of T's clothes in after sorting them out
Went to Weight Watchers (gained a pound :-\)
Went to the village's contribution to National Night Out (only had 1 1/2 pieced of pizza)
Passed out 4-5 biz cards there
Grabbed fixin's for Pizza Salad (yeah, and finished everything but the bag of salad. I'm not the only one who had servings out of it though)

Remind me not to watch The Two Coreys before going to bed. My favorite Corey is still the same, after all these years. Haim. He's a sad sad case. All those drugs have done quite a job on him. Hot guy, sad outcome. I was looking at stuff on the net about him a few times today---and I've come to see that he's such a sad case.

I ended up going to sleep at about 3:30 last night. Ugh. Oh well, that's why I'm going to bed in a minute here. *sigh* Let's hope I don't fall asleep so late!!! Ugh...

Nightie night!

Finish sorting bills - done
Sort tubs - done
Go for a walk
Go to bed at 11
Take a shower with T (so that I can go to bed at 11---trust me, it makes sense!)
Wash T's clothes - tomorrow
Fold his clothes
Vac - next, after watching a couple things on the tv :-)
Evaluate all yarn related areas
Transfer computer stuff into a bigger box :-| - done
Read more on web design

Phew. I'm happy at least that I got the bills and the tubs sorted. Those were my big goals for the day! :-) Especially since they are something of a cross over :-) I'll have to go through the box of my stuff left over from the tub sort. Next I'm going to watch the stuff on tv, grate up some candles to make samples, vac and make dinner :-) Then get ready for bed after putting P to bed before taking that shower with T :-) But I swear I had got to the point of thinking that I'd never see the bottom of those boxes of bills!! Now I have 4-5 bags of garbage, mainly the envelopes, etc from the bills :-)

Finish sorting bills - more to do tomorrow, but I made a good dent today!!!
Dishes - finished tonight's :-)
Pick up what hasn't yet been picked up on the floor - pretty much, yeah :-)
Take shower - next on my list
Consider what I can take care of in the tubs - just sorta looked at them
Have some tea - yup, DD too :-)

Well, I did pretty well with my list. I also cleaned up my desk area, including the crate that's on the drawer thing behind it that Padraic took over because I didn't want to have to deal with him getting into the stuff that was in it. It's way too late again though. I spent about 2-3 hours playing Sally's Salon---stuck for most of that on one level, the last one :-\ Oh well....tomorrow I want to...

Finish sorting bills
Sort tubs
Go for a walk
Go to bed at 11
Take a shower with T (so that I can go to bed at 11---trust me, it makes sense!)
Wash T's clothes
Fold his clothes
Vac
Evaluate all yarn related areas
Transfer computer stuff into a bigger box :-|
Read more on web design

Update on my lists:

Get PSs - done
Fold/Stuff PSs - done
Deliver PSs - done
Bring mom her wash - done
Put away 1 basket/box/tub of things on desk - done on Sunday
Fold and put away my clothes - done on Sunday
Fold and put away basket of stuff sitting here - done on Sunday
Wash basket in wash room - done
Dishes - finished Sunday
Make Italian Chicken - had Sunday

Sunday I can:

Wash Tom's clothes
Do more dishes - need to do more, and will :-)
Fold and put away Tom's clothes
Post about stuff I want to sell - done Saturday evening
Vac
Shred candle(s) and make up another bunch of samples, attaching them to cards and catalogs

I did not realize how much time doing the PSs would take. But they all got done in a day. And while I haven't done the tubs that were on my desk yet, I have been working on the boxes of old bills that have been. I got to thinking, what's the point in sorting them out and having them all over the floor when I could just sort them directly into the filing cabinet? I know, duh. But we all have to come the realization on our own! :-) I'm almost done with that---something that's almost amazing considering how long I've been putting it off. I also managed to do some work (though not much) on my new website this weekend. I'll be doing more---I just have the basic framework figured out so far :-)

It's 8:30, roughly, right now, and my little guy is already in bed. I'll accomplish the rest of my new list between now and 11:30. Here's that list!

Finish sorting bills
Dishes
Pick up what hasn't yet been picked up on the floor
Take shower
Consider what I can take care of in the tubs
Have some tea

This week I will do other things that I haven't done in a while, like mopping my kitchen and bathroom floors, and other things.

You know, sometimes I'm just all talk....

In the emails for the group for the candle biz, I got a really great article today. It basically says that positive affirmations are all well and good, the only way things get done is by DOING them. I guess that means have faith and follow through with the action. Hmm. Makes some sense, doesn't it? I'll see if I can find a link to the article or something, so I can post it here :-) I wish we had some ink in the printer so I could print it off and carry it with me.

So I got to thinking, well, I'll start tomorrow, since there's little I can do that I have to do that I can start doing today. But then I thought---wait, that's not true. I can start one thing tonight---I can go to bed at a decent hour. So, in that vein....I'm going to bed at 11. No ifs, ands, or buts about it. I'm going to have my little guy in bed by then (he took a small nap this evening when we got home from getting the car inspected, so he's still a bit energized), and I will force my big girl to go to bed and go myself. I'm also going to wash my clothes, which need doing. They'll be in the washer overnight, but oh well.

Then tomorrow I'll---

Get PSs
Fold/Stuff PSs
Deliver PSs
Bring mom her wash
Put away 1 basket/box/tub of things on desk
Fold and put away my clothes
Fold and put away basket of stuff sitting here
Wash basket in wash room
Dishes
Make Italian Chicken

Sunday I can:

Wash Tom's clothes
Do more dishes
Fold and put away Tom's clothes
Post about stuff I want to sell
Vac
Shred candle(s) and make up another bunch of samples, attaching them to cards and catalogs

I can also put aside $5 a week, putting it into my biz account so that it has money in it when I need it for biz stuff, and in hopes to get more money coming in. Also, I can bring prepared biz cards everywhere I go. I'm also going to get my website up and running, I've already started going over my text book from my website building class, so I know more code than just the stuff I know now---there's more to it.

As for the candle biz, I dropped off the basket for the chinese auction at a local art gallery, which I learned about from freecycle. I also told the guy who did our inspection about the biz, and he just about jumped out of his skin, LOL!!! I hope THAT one turns into a sale. I need a sale so bad, the rush from one is too intoxicating!!! :-D

Let's see, what else? I don't know, but I am getting tired anyhow, so I'll head off towards the bedroom, and getting my clothes washed :-) Let's hope it cools down soon!!! It's so hot out!!!

Things to do...

Well, I'm still feeling a bit lost, wondering about my place in the world, etc. I know there are so many things I have to do---get things in order and start working people about the candle biz, get back to writing, get this house clean. Right now it all feels a bit overwhelming. A good thing---I did finish Harry Potter #7. I like how it ended, somewhat. But I won't second guess her---not my job as a writer or a reader. I'm not sure it would have been right if it had gone any other way.

Damn I wish I could write that good though :-\ I probably do, I'm just not giving myself enough credit. :-\

Well, gotta get to bed and start a new day. I have some money related things to do in the morning/tomorrow. :-)

Not a bad weekend.

We went to the fair yesterday. It was actually pretty fun. We even started out really nice and early. I don't think I've ever been to the fair THAT early before---we went through the gate about 12:30. We walked around a bit because the rides hadn't started yet, and looked around the exhibition hall at all the entries. I've got to enter something in the fair next year, and I have an idea of what I want that to be. The tablecloth---but not the one I made, another one with a different thickness of thread---slightly thicker, and I'm going to try for all one color, white. And I want really bad for T to enter a picture or two. We also have to sit down and figure out what pictures he's going to enter for a local contest. I've got to see if he'll sit down and do that today or tomorrow. The contest ends on Tuesday.

On our way home from the fair, we stopped at WalMart and I got a copy of Harry Potter #7. I wanted to read all the others again first, but I saw the price there, and finally more were in stock, so I got it! :-)

Today has gone smoothly as well. I stayed up until almost 3 reading HP#7, so I got up later than I wanted to. I went out about 1 for my route, and it was basically done by 5, which is when it's to be out---by 5 on Sunday. Not bad for doing it all myself (my daughter ended up being a pain while I was filling the bags, so I told her she got to stay home.). D did do 1 street, not far from the house---she's getting older and I'm letting her have a bit of freedom once in a while. Being a parent to an older child isn't easy---but I'm sure that's not a surprise to some!

Now we're off to see my mom before T has to go to work. :-)

One more, then bed

So I got thinking about the theme that seems to be running through my head lately.

I checked myself, thought about it for a few minutes, and found that, yes, I still feel lost. Right down half the time to what I'm supposed to be doing at that moment sometimes.

But a thought occurred to me. Let me see if I can recreate it in my mind first....

Hmm...

Well, I can tell for sure I'm not scared. I've stated before, I've got my family around me. They are the why for everything. Staying home with my babies, being a wife to my hubby, being who I am and enjoying what I do. Where we're going and how we're going to be able to take care of what we have to take care of is beyond me right now.

I want to know why I feel so stuck and out of sorts. The out of sorts part to some degree has always been there. I'm where I'm supposed to be and with who I'm supposed to be with, but the rest of it just feels off. I can't totally explain it.

And I don't know why things aren't clicking for me. Why I've got the problems I do---why I can't get that brass ring I'm supposed to be able to. I mean, I'm smart and sweet and kind and full of potential, but I'm just not living up to it. And I'm strong, I can get through anything because I was given a very happy, safe and secure base. But it feels like after I get to the idea portion, it just all sorta fizzles out. And I don't see why. I haven't had any major problems in my life, other than the Depo Provera....that's it. That's the worst. I had great parents, a great childhood---everything should be going RIGHT, why is it going so WRONG???

I'll figure it all out one day, for now I've got to get to bed. We're going to the fair tomorrow :-) My dh has the evening off :-)

And another one....maybe some work?

Yeah, maybe...

I've got to kick this place into a higher gear of shape (does that make sense?). So, a small PODA. I originally sat down to write this a while ago, I just got into other things (like the items on this list). :-) Good thing, eh?

Vac
Fold washed clothes - done
Dishes
Make dinner
Sweep floor (kitchen & bathroom) - done (delegated)
Peeve off daughter - done

So far so good...I'll report back later, listing what other things I want to get done over time. Let's hope one day I'm actually able to hold to one of these lists or another...:-\

If I start earlier, maybe, just maybe....

I'll end up going to bed earlier....wouldn't that be nice?

Well, I've done a little touching up around here---not that that means much really, because the house is still in shambles. :-(

But, now maybe this is because it IS only 1:30 in the afternoon, or maybe the good bit of rain we had washed them away, but I haven't heard from the trailer court terror yet! :-) We were up a lot earlier than it seems those who haunt us and who haunt with us are. I can presently hear the younger brother of the 2 girls D usually plays with crying. I do wonder if he's okay. He likes to watch out the window a lot---poor little guy, he's just over a year old---and I know they like to both stay up late and get up late.

My little guy managed to bring the little car I bought him to ride around in a bunch in the house. It's actually kinda funny how he moves that thing up and down to different elevations. I'm not going to complain that he brought it in---as long as he doesn't run into anything, I think we will all be fine :-)

I'm contemplating bringing another website into the world. I have 2 different accounts set up already, in addition to the one I've had like forever---I've been looking at it these last few days off and on, and it makes me kinda sad to see how horrible I used to be at them. I'm thinking about reading through my HTML text book from the class I took, so I can figure out and learn style sheets. That should go a long way into making my website look polished. I'm also going to add a lot of things I've learned or my husband has learned or done---pictures and picture editting mainly. Of course right now all we have to edit pictures is Paint, but it's a start. I wish I could get my hands on another copy of Paint Shop Pro---now THAT was fun. I made some really great AOL icons once, several of them for Retro Man! :-)

Did I mention that RM is on the web?? Yes, it is----on YOUTUBE. A friend of my friend, the director, writer and star, who is also in the movie, posted it in 4 parts on his YouTube page...I don't know if YOU will get it, but maybe you'll understand why I love it so much. I mean, it's a DASjr original---who can't love that??? And DASjr is a SWEETHEART!!! :-D

So, go check out...

RETRO MAN

Another day...

Still have to deal with those kids. I don't know what I'm going to do about it. I pray really hard about it right now. I'd like to say something to the police, but they haven't done much other than talk. Cheap talk at that. I wish there was someone to go to like when I was in middle school. Back then there was one girl my age who picked on me a whole lot, really mean like too. The new principal that year---it would have been my 7th grade year---he told us that if there was anyone treating us like that and bullying us, to go to him and he'd help us take care of it. So, that's what I did---she was nasty to me, and I went to him about it. We both went to his office to talk about it, and boy oh boy---he wasn't yelling, or mean to her, we just all sat down at the table in his office and talked, him talking to her about it, and me telling him what was going on. The whole time I had my head held high, and her head was down and she was picking at a tissue in the box in the middle of the table. Now I'm wishing for another person of authority like that---that will talk some SENSE into this kid!!! I'm thinking if I DO go to the police, it would be to ask them what to do about it. What makes me feel the saddest about it all is that I'm supposed to be one of those authority figures who are supposed to solve this for my daughter. I can't do that anyhow because this kid just pisses me off so bad---him, how he acts, his situation, the fact that his mom either doesn't care or is just in some HORRIBLE state of denial (any person like that just makes me really really sad)---she complains that HE gets picked on by everyone, everyone blames him for what he doesn't do, every other kid's parents are the bad ones (like the kid he's hanging out with now :-\), etc etc etc. It makes me sick. We had a nice storm several weeks ago, and we all stood in a group by the garage as the electric company was here taking care of things. We were all talking, and the subject somehow came around to this kid who is riding around on his bike all the time, because the kid had not gone home during the rainstorm, despite the trailer park terror's insistence. Sure. And she complained about how horrible HIS parents must be, letting him ride his bike around at all hours of the day, alone, etc....where as this kid...he's been down in the middle of town in the middle of the night, he bucks authority, etc.

But you know, I'm intent on not letting this kid keep me in the house anymore. I've kept inside the house for the last 2 years, not now. No, this is my trailer park too, this is a place I pay for, I deserve to be able to use it freely. The sidewalk is a public place---if I need to use it to lose weight, I have the right to do so, he can't keep me from it.

I'm asking the universe for a lot now. I'm praying for enough money to cover things we have to pay and now this.

Happy Happy Day!!!

Today is indeed a happy day. :-D

If you have gone to my myspace page anytime before I set it to private, you will have seen that there's a certain someone that I've been wanting badly to see or talk to.

Well, when we were on our way back into the middle of town from dropping something off at D's school, we passed by his parents house, and they were outside. I know they haven't been around town for a while---a year or more---because I couldn't find their number in the phone book or get through with their number after I found it in older phone books. :-) So, I ended up talking to his mom for a while, over at the library (I had to print out a couple things), then I called him this evening after T got up :-D (I had to ask him where the picture of our calling card was :-)). Hopefully I will be talking to him more!!! I miss him, he's one of my oldest and best friends :-) Being able to talk to him made a day that had a few bad spots (specifically a certain child in this trailer park using a kid that used to be D's friend to have a little fun with the girls...I mean, they could at least make their insults original. "D's mom is fat" is kind of obvious. The good thing about it is that their quality of insults didn't get much worse than that. I guess it just goes to show their brain power. :-D I heckled back for them to get some original insults.) brighter. :-) Not that, now that I think about it, it was all that dark before they started into their stuff.

I haven't bought the new Harry Potter book yet. I'm going to. I'm hoping to find it for a decent price---at WalMart it's $18 something. I'm not even going to try to look at the local bookstore, but I might try one of the big local supermarkets. I'm thinking that D is right and it was sold out at WalMart when we were there yesterday. I got to thinking with the kids, what would Harry Potter do? Heck, yes, even put in what would Jesus do? They'd both sit out and wait for the stupid people to move along. They always do---they find something or someone new or different to occupy their small minds, and all you have to do is realize that, while they may grasp what they are doing in that moment, they don't quite get it and how it fits into the whole picture---they don't get that they will move along, and you will move along, and they will probably not achieve what it is that they are hoping to accomplish. If you just realize that their minds and ambitions are much smaller than your own, then you can move on and deal with the momentary discomfort of some stupid kid running around on his bike making small insults. Hell, he was riding his bike and my son was playing with one of his soccer balls. The ball rolled across to the wall of this garage that's on the edge of the property, the neighbor's garage, and I went after it with my son. In doing this, I had myself between my son and this stupid kid. I figured, the kid has to learn that he's not the only one out there, that he has to watch for other people. He heckled me and said "hey, watch out, there's traffic coming through here." I thought it but didn't say it---"yeah, too bad for you that you'd learn that pedestrians have the right of way." Because, if one of us got hurt because he ran his bike into us (or, when he gets older, his car---or his mom's), then he'd be the one getting in trouble. He has to watch for us, not the other way around. Dumb @$$. LOL

So what did I do when they were doing their stuff. I paid more attention for most of the time period to what my kids were doing, and playing with them and making them happy---namily my little guy. We were sitting on the porch, and my little guy and I were rolling his balls back and forth. He was giggling himself silly. And when I didn't have to do that, I was praying. Praying hard. That this kid would get his comeupance. To be honest, there were so many times that I wished that kid would misjudge when he was going across the street we live on---a very busy street---and get hit. Few people deserve it, but he makes it pretty close. Now I don't want that---it would be too good for him. Should he survive, he'd get babied, felt sorry for. No, I want something where people---ESPECIALLY HIS MOTHER---see his true colors. What's sad, it might take until this kid is OLD---older than me---for it to really show thru. And until then we all have to deal with his garbage! :-( There have been times we thought for sure that the landlord would kick them out of here---one of the kids throwing a firecracker or something back there just about 2-3 months after P was born, when he convinced the kid upstairs that it would be fun to push a skateboard and then he pushed their little wagon into our front screen door, and many other events---but no. Nope, she was even behind in rent once, managed to find someplace to pay for it for her, and boom she was staying.

You might notice, I added more weigh-in totals to my weight loss table. It seems I've now broken the 300 barrier! I hope this sticks this time!!! I don't feel much different right now---my stomach has been feeling flatter (for what that's worth :-S), and my clothes actually FIT, some of them are LOOSE---but I don't feel much else. Not too much different from when I turned 30, LOL!!! Maybe when I'm closer to 250 I'll feel a difference :-)

I'm not sure what else there is for now. So I guess that means I can go to bed :-)